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[31 Mar 2008|11:53pm]
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Yay School! [26 Jan 2008|12:37am]
I think I am better intrigued by my classes when my profs are gai.

Thank goodness 3 out of 5 are.

Film class prof is teaching the same thing he taught last semester, this is going to be extremely easy and extremely boring. Vic wouldn't let me pass out in class. What a jerk, the prof wasn't even in the room with us when the film played.

English this year seems like I may actually learn something, alone with French. Urban Studies is a lot of interaction which is something I like to do.

I noticed all the hipsters at school today. I think I may be guilty of the hater club...oh well.

what else?

I went on craigslist and asked for help with miles. Everyone should check it out. There are some images, and the keywords are "Help Miles get Neuter" or just type in Miles.

p.s. i love craigslist and ebay.
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stolen from yacki [19 Jan 2008|02:22pm]
1) Are your parents married or divorced? divorced.
2) Vegetarian? no.
3) Heaven? maybe.
4) Come close to dying? everytime a roach surprises me.
5) What jewelry do you wear 24/7? my name necklace.
6) Are you eating? drinking but not eating.
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? yes.
8) Makeup? i try to everyday.
9) Were you the dumper or the dumpee in your past relationship? i say dumper, he says mutual. but i was def. the dumper.
10) Would you ever have plastic surgery? hell yea...I want titties!
11) What do you wear to bed? old clothes.
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? as long as Imma live Imma live illegal!
13) Can you roll your tongue? yes i think.
14) Tweeze your eyebrows? yes.
15) What kind of watch(es)? my purple nike running watch.
16) Abortion? pro-choice.
17) Hair color? it's called horrible dye job.
18) Future child's name? amy and mary-kate, eddie, daniel, and apollo!
19) Do you snore? I have no nose bridge!! I have no choice but to snore!
20) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go? all over the world.
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no, just miles.
22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first? pay my debts, buy houses, buy some more houses, and go on vacation with the fam, then go on vacation again with bf, then get miles neutered.
23) Gold or silver? silver.
24) Hamburger or hot dog? hamburger.
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? pickles!
26.) City, beach or country? city all the way.
27) What was the last thing you touched? laptop.
28) Where do you eat dinner? vic's bed.
29) When's the last time you cried? yesterday, watching deep impact.
30) Do you read blogs? yea, postsecret's blog.
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? all the time.
32) Ever been involved with the police? yes, but not sexually.
33) What's your favourite shampoo/conditioner and soap? matrix for the hair things, marc jacobs for the soap.
34) Do you talk in your sleep? yes.
35) Ocean or pool? ocean.
36)What's your favorite song at the moment? m.i.a.- twenty dollar
37) what's your favorite color? red.
38) Window seat or aisle? window seat.
39) Ever met any famous bands/singers? yes.
40) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship? yes.
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? i just stick it all in my mouth, and slurp it.
42) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey? oprah.
43) Basketball or Football? football.
44) How long do your showers last? 45 minutes, i have lots of hair.
45) Do you drive a stick? no.
46) Cake or ice cream? both.
47) Self-conscious? not really.
49) Have you ever given money to a bum? yes.
50. When was your first crush? kindergarten.
51) Where do you wish you were? the 80's!!!!!
52) Have you ever broken someone's heart? all the time.
53) Have you ever rode in an ambulance? yes.
54) can you tango? yes, it's the aileen version though.
55) Last gift you received? miles left me a gift this morning.
56) Last sport you played? race between me and vic.
57). Things you spend a lot of money on? bills, and miles.
58) Where do you live? new york.
60) Last wedding attended? i don't remember, but it had to be one of my aunts or something.
61) Favorite fast food restaurant? taco bell.
62) Where do you work? bloomies.
63) Most hated food? fish.
65) Can you sing? no.
66) Last IM? dennis, like last year.
67) what's your least fav. chore? washing dishes.
68) Favorite drink? vodka sour!!!!!
69) Current Crush? his name is...SHIA LaBOUF!!

+ Iassac and Desiree did each other. How disgusting!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!
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guess what!?!? [12 Dec 2007|09:21pm]
I'm sending out my America's Next Top Model application tomorrow.

Let's see what happens, and if something does happen.....

you never know :D
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hm............ [28 Nov 2007|11:00pm]
So what happens when you drink some white wine and put on smashing pumpkins...

you think of those boys that made you or at least contributed to who you became today.

I remember Hector and those 3 years of growing up teen-years of drama and realisation.

First love...first heart-break.

"all I have is what you gave me"-Smashing Pumpkins.

I also think of Chi-Chi who made that mix CD of all my fav. songs and who now reminds me of that CD player and Alexandra... the end.

I made Vic mad...dammit.
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goddamn i'm so tired! [05 Nov 2007|08:32pm]
Yeah, so I can barely get myself out of bed in the mornings and than i get seroquel prescribed to me to take at night.

What does this mean: That now I can't even get myself out of bed until afternoon with barely enough time to get ready for work.

I have a crisis intervention couselor and a therapist who work together now. One that I see and one that sees me. I feel a lot better about this because I feel like I have someone or should I say someones are devoted to making sure I get better and get the hell out of Hunter. Meaning that i graduate get out of Hunter. My French teacher had a hunch something was wrong and came to the rescue. I appreciate his help a lot.

But seriously, why are people prescribed that shit, it's been two weeks and all i do is sleep more and act like a potatoe when I'm walking around. I feel like my soul has been taken over by this medication. I'm all up for medication when it helps in a positive way, but this shit sucks. I'm too sedated to do anything.

But when I can I read (meaning a page before I knock out) and so far there is this really amazing sex book it's called: she comes first.

It's freaking hott and everyone fucking girl and guy should read it and live by it.
the end.

It's been a month and I'm still not done with my essays that were due a month ago and lose a letter grade each day it's late.
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ak;sdfh [31 Oct 2007|12:31am]
what are the plans for tomorrow night?

what the hell is it with everyone smoking pot....I don't see it's full potential anymore.
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my head hurts [30 Oct 2007|09:31am]
[ mood | sickly ]

I have the want to finish this semester out.

But my need to stay in bed all day long is a lot stronger.

Today I try to get my counselor to talk to my professors, and if that doesn't work out I will once again get a medical withdrawal. I just hope I wont owe CUNY any money.

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PSA on YOUTUBE [27 Oct 2007|12:37pm]

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[07 Sep 2007|04:35pm]
ack so much hw and reading...why did I choose to take all writing and reading classes at once this semester?!?!?

AFPR studies is so fucking boring too!

ps- me and vic did it last night, it was funny cause I asked him to tell me what exactly happened today. LOL! BUT I REMEMBER EVERYTHING!
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yea it's been forever... [03 Sep 2007|09:09pm]
[ mood | in love ]

This summer...

It started up North, pure craziness + me and Vic time. The rest of summer basically was me and Vic and a new addition: Miles. The end of summer was way too much drinking, and lots of me + Vic time.

Now that school is starting it makes me sad to think I wont be spending as much time as I did in Jersey. Maybe it's a good thing to cleanse my soul of the dirty Jersey smell (sorry Vic), but I just don't feel at home in this house unless Vic and Miles were here. I don't feel at home anywhere until I'm with them, whether it's car-rides, endless nights, or at bus stops.

I love my boys.

p.s school sucks and I'm taking 6 classes, they all seem pretty easy. I need to get to HW now.

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I just one word to say.... [29 Jun 2007|08:01pm]
[ mood | in love ]


Yes you know who you bes!

Anyway drunken talk has led me to believe that Vic is saving his paychecks for a special ring of some sort. So I get excited and tell him what kind of rings I prefer such as white gold or silver with an aquamarine stone.

I think my dad is getting pissed that I keep heading out there to see the boyfriend he never met. And my mom is getting excited and telling the family I will be the first to bear child in the family. She's so weird I tell you!

I don't know guys. It's so weird. Actually no its not...it actually feels right. Everything about this feels right...I can feel it in my bones :D

His cousin isn't well, but it's a better/positive story than others that have ended up in ICU. My heart drops now when I hear those letters. I pray he gets better and stays better/healthy.

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mmm.... [05 Apr 2007|04:36pm]

what a cutie :D

too bad he is keeping me from doing my french homework right now!
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cont'd [09 Feb 2007|03:12pm]
It's my last day of the famous birthday week. I wish my mind wasn't so cluttered with french conjugations and words right now so that way I could reflect on this past week...

I still haven't showered and it's pretty late in the afternoon. I like not having to shower. I wish my body could just clean itself automatically. I think that would be awesome.

My hands feel like sandpaper. I want to buy some handcream. I can't afford it though. And the stupid Collections agency is annoying me to the max. I hate it when they call me up. My phone is on the permanent vibe now. Hopefully my restaurant opens this upcoming weekend, I can't go on another week not working. It's so gay.

School is becoming more eventful. Just the other day my snapple bottle fell off the table and smashed onto the floor. Did I mention it was in a roomful of people I didn't know. I'm going to stick to drinking hot tea. School has also become more time-consuming. I have art projects, and I study and review every day. I must get a B average!!!! I must get into the honors program and get massive amounts of money!! I must take 18 credits next year!!! I like being occupied though, it gives me more things to schedule into my scheduler which is always fun.

Marathon training starts tomorrow...so today officially is the last day to ever smoke ever again. EVER! So if you ever see me in the street and you are smoking...don't offer me one unless it is still February 9th.

None of My w-2s have arrived yet...that's a new project I'm must finish before this month ends.
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The pain is horrible. [13 Jan 2007|11:35pm]
[ mood | in intense shooting pains ]

So early this morning I started getting small pains. It felt like cramps. As the day got later the pains got stronger and started expanding surface area. I hate this and maybe I shouldn't drink so much anymore. I hate ULCERS. And I will be making a doctor's appointment and I will take his previous offers for meds to make this better. I really want to head to the hospital, but the wait there is worse than this. ; [


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yay 24 more hours [31 Dec 2006|02:42am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I'm so excited...I just can't hide it...I'm so excited!!!

I need to do so much stuff tomorrow I should really be sleeping...but I'm so excited. I have the house alone to myself again. Dennis spoiled his own surprise. I want him to come to Olek's like so badly. Maybe...

I met his whole family today, it was so akward. Well, no not really. He says his family loves me...what family doesn't?? He is so sick too...

Whatever, if worse comes to worse I will just hang out with his family, leave after the ball drops, and head to the party. Or pass out on his couch....hmmm.

My dad and his group left me the house once more...my mom wants to head into time square she is crazy...my sis and james are going to a club...I will figure this out tomorrow I need to sleep now.

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i love my new job.... [29 Dec 2006|02:53am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

it's just so cute and perfect. I haven't asked about the pay yet, but it seems pretty up there.

As she slowly turns up her writing music....

My adolosence years were truly quite the learning experience. Sex, drugs, and Rock and Roll. To think that I'm almost 20 years of age. It's been a sweet ride. I would like to thank those that have made me realize that I can do it on my own. I would like to thank those that have helped me absorb it all. I would like to thank those that shown me all the colors of emotions, and there is quite a lot. I would love to thank those that are growing up with me and continue to grow along side me. At first I honestly wanted to understand what would make say all you had to say, I guess you never really paid attention to anything that left my mouth. Maybe it's better to play it out the way you see best. For a second I started to care...Whateves I say...I'm done caring. Do what you want, envision me the way you want, but I know I'm still going to keep on living because that is the way I see my life going. I won't see the time I spent with you as a lost though, just me learning.

I must be dumb for letting someone get so close to me and yet still hurt me. Forget the boys. The only satisfaction I will give you is letting you know that you're comment on me not celebrating the holidays did hurt. It hurt because you bring up someone extremely close to me, and I'm sorry if I'm not over his passing yet since it was recent. He was family and he was always there. Do you know what it feels like to be with someone only 3 hours ago and waking up "christmas morning" to get a call telling you that he died. To know that never again you will see him. He was so young and his death I just don't understand. I would never wish that on you or anyone. But of course you being the loyal friend that you are may have completely forgotten about this horrible time, but thank you again Sheena for bringing this up, not once but twice. But I guess it is better that I think of you as being cold-hearted anyway. I guess you probably forgot about everything else I've gone through as well.

So please keep on forgetting and construing your own notions. Have a charming life and let me fade you out like I did with Alex. One thing I can say I learned is that the quality of a friendship does not get better with the span of time spent together.

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This is the part where me and hector laugh for always being brought up... [27 Dec 2006|01:37pm]
[ mood | brainwashed ]

Sorry if I don't celebrate the holiday tradition, some people would understand why. While I guess you liking Hector and me going out with him is EXACTLY like you going out with my ex-boyfriend or someone who I gave myself too. Oops, my bad!

Well the new year is rolling in quite fast. Four more days and I still hate the fact that I have to be at work (new year's day) at 10am. I only stay there for two hours which sucks kind of more. So much for trying to get really fucked up on the eve. I'm pretty excited....next month school. Finally, I feel like my brain has been rotting, I don't know how some people can just bum it out. I tried really hard and found myself making schedules and reading even more.

I need to figure out how to spend my last day of being unemployed.

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A contract to myself for the year 2007 aka resolution [26 Dec 2006|02:13pm]
[ mood | sick ]

In the following year I want to respect myself more and discover who I am. I refuse to continue these meaningless relationship with men and instead I rather find someone that is worthwhile. I want to stop or at least limit my partying ways so I can focus on my education plus planned future which consist of paying off all of my debit, securing a car, and then my very own apartment. I want to control my excessive spending on knick knacks and instead save the money for my travelling escapades. Basically all I really want for the new year is to be: healthy, happy, educated, beautified ( i had to add in lol), well-cultured, successful, and true to myself and definately not fake to others. I guess this leaves this pretty open as to what I really want in the new year, but it is definately a start to a "better" me.

-Aileen O.

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